WHO IS REALLY IMPORTANT?

WHO IS REALLY IMPORTANT?

The happenings today . . . My mom went in this morning to have a laser procedure done on her right eye because of cataracts. I took a nap after getting home from the eye doctor’s with mom and dad, and eating lunch. I got up and went to the class I mentor on Monday nights. And while we were getting ready to eat supper a small brush fire burst on the scene. The reason? Because the woman who cleans the church was sharing a bit of gossip. Mind you, I’m not sure that was her intent at first. But she was upset about something and wanted to share. She noted that a certain person who tends to be controlling and was preparing something on Halloween night got upset when she mentioned that a homeless person would be coming in to sleep in the church’s parlor. The person who got upset said that there would be no one else allowed at the church while he was there. Even though the homeless person has been given permission by the church board to stay Saturday nights at the church. The brush fire that erupted came about because another person tried to stand up in support of the person who was the controller. And in my attempt to try and make peace, I noted that the woman telling the story can embellish the truth just like we all can. But also that this person who is always trying to control things is always trying to control things. Even when they don’t have the right!

And so, now I am home. I log on to FACEBOOK to check out the various happenings there all the while trying to deal with the broken feelings of this woman who brought the story to the surface in the first place -- she seems to think that since I admitted that I have known when she embellishes the truth that is tantamount to me saying that she lies all the time. And there I see a friend of mine who has just received a call from the Doctor telling them that they have cancer.

WOW! Who is really important? The person who is trying to control and micro manage everything at the church? The person who has their feelings hurt because they perceive my statement of them embellishing the truth is equal to lying? The person who has just found out that they have cancer and they may die leaving behind a spouse, two children and three grandchildren? My mother who has to go back tomorrow to make sure everything went ok with the laser procedure? The person who tried to stand up for the controlling person and can’t separate the controlling person bad actions from what the control person does and is involved in at the church? Me because I am having to deal with all the problems that everyone else is heaping on me as well as my own problems and failings?

The fact is, everyone is important to a greater or lesser degree, and I am bombarded with all this and I shut down. I can’t take it any more because I am sick of people looking to me for validation and I am sick of people using me as an excuse to leave the church because I have hurt them somehow. Enough is enough! I will take it no longer. If you want a reason to leave, then leave. Because you will eventually find one and so just do it and stop using me to get your way. If you are wanting a reason to claim that I have hurt you, then make the claim because I am human and I am going to hurt someone. And the odds are pretty good that it will eventually be you. If you are wanting to control things, fine! Just realize that ultimately, I am not going to let you control me, because I’m sick and tired of bullies and that is how people control, they bully you! The end result? I would recommend that you don’t push me unless you really want to see what is going to happen. Because, there is a really good chance that it isn’t going to be a good thing! Because, when everything is said and done, self preservation dictates that I am going to say ME! I am the most important right now!