Mind you, I have come to realize that I was really born gay. But I want to answer these questions so you get a clearer understanding of who this gay guy is! DO NOT READ IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO KNOW THE INTENSE DETAILS IF MY LIFE!
What was it that made you "choose, (what did you see, what did you hear, what did you smell, what did you taste, what did you feel?) If I had to pick something that "made" me gay, it was seeing all the hot men either in the S&R clothing catalog, or seeing handsome men walking down the streets, watching musicals and ballets, and swash-bukling movies, watching the old country westerns, some colognes made me want that to possibly get men to speak to me, didn't have any taste or feeling until much much later.
Was it a continuous choosing of something over and over again, or was it a once and done action that you had to note it just seemed right?
I kept struggling with it so it was a continuous struggle as I grew up. Mind you, I have told this story before that I was 4 years old, running through our house, my two brothers were watching TV in the living room, my sister was in our room (yes I slept in her room) playing with dolls, and I had a towel tied around my neck playing superhero, and I just stopped in the middle room. I looked back at my brothers and I looked through the doorway at my sister, and I had this harsh realization that I was different than them, and I could tell them or talk to them about my different-ness because they would understand. I have held that memory ever since and in 6th grade I realized that difference was being gay. I had a word for it now! But I struggled through my youth with that feeling and if that was a choice, it happened at age 4.
Do you contribute comic books to your choosing or was it something in a real life experience?
Yes! Comic books really turned me on. Even at age 5 when I was reading them and looking at the pictures. And I do count them as to contributing to my superhero fetish and my bondage fetish. (I WARNED YOU)
Was it the fact that us Gays have immense social graces, greater intelligence than others, amazing styles and talents or the music bug?
I don’t know if I realized this before or after I found more gay men throughout history. We do have a lot of these qualities, though my sense of style is limited as compared to others.
So, there you have it. IF I made a choice, these are the reasonings why!
