This past weekend I went to see a musical called “Billy Elliot” It was awesome! The dancing was amazing! The music was great! Truly, a wonderful musical to see! So, why have I become so sad because of it? Well, That is why I am writing this blog post! To explain just that!
When I was in high school, I had a dream to become an actor. I had great hopes that I would act on Broadway or in the movies. Of course, I also wanted to do all of the things that actors did. I wanted to sing, I wanted to dance, and yes, I even took ballet. And I was reasonably good doing it. But, as I graduated from college and began moving on with life, all of that dream went to the back burner. I would have been happy with doing community theater, but that never arose. I simply helped out at the occasional Christmas play. But even that was enough to satiate my dream.
Now, here I am! I am a 51 year old fat man who struggles with just living life from day to day. And I go and watch a musical about a young boy who stumbles into a ballet class and is actually good at it. And I realize that my dreams don’t come true. My dreams may never come true. I am not going to ever be on Broadway, I am not going to ever dance in community theater, I am never going to fulfill those dreams of stage or screen even at the lowest of levels. And that is why I am so sad. It is heart wrenching to realize that your dreams have been shattered while you weren’t looking! It is even more heart wrenching to realize that all of the choices and decisions you have made in your life have come to this moment. Is there an answer to all of this? Possibly, but for right now I am wallowing in my grief and sorrow. (A side note here. Now is the time when you might want to comment and say that surely things can’t be that bad, there is always hope, and I just need to look on the bright side of life! (and cue Monty Python music!)) At any rate, in spite of my dreams being shattered, and life being in the crapper, may you be blessed for taking the time to read this! - David L.
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